Second Blog

2008-05-05T17:56:00.000-07:00

Recently, I have been home more and have had the chance to spend more time with my mom. I’ve given my mom a hug everyday. Why have I had this change in mind from what I spoke of in my last blog? It is a love that binds my mom and me together: music. Just the other week NPR had a two-night special on TV with James Taylor performing a concert. My mom and I caught the very end of the show the first night and l heard him sing "Carolina in my Mind" (a song that I like a lot). The next night my mom came running into the computer room saying, "Dave, come and watch James Taylor! He’s back on TV!" But I was annoyed at her and responded by saying, "Mom can’t you see that I’m trying to get my homework done?" Several minutes later I wondered what I was thinking when I said that to her. So I went over to my mom, who was curled up on the couch and half asleep was listening to “Carolina in My Mind.” I sat down on the coach and hugged my half-asleep-mom half and I watched the rest of the show with her until she fell asleep. Later that night I could only cry because I realized that song would always remind me of mom whenever I hear it. And because all the songs she has played on the piano since I was a child have the same connection, these too will forever be in my mind reminding me of my mom. I now listen carefully to mom play the piano so that every note will have a memory connected back to her.

I feel half alive
Brought alive by the piano notes pressed by her hand
that go through my ear and become a part of my soul
I know now that song is a part of her that is forever a part of me
Any song played, any song listened to
will forever make me remember

I feel half alive
breath shot into me
though every key pressed
becoming a memory
and every memory seems to be linked back to her
and everything linked back to her comes with a song
and when the song is lost
I feel half alive

First Blog

2007-04-03T16:44:00.001-07:00

I am Davey the 8th child of the Blackwood family. From the time that my mother was diagnosed with cancer to now, one word goes through my head everyday: That word being thankful. I realized how thankful I was to have the mother I had and how much I really appreciated her. It is also so easy now to recognize that life is fragile and every moment should not be taken for granted. It’s obvious to me now when a person can be taken for granted, most people like myself won’t realize that they have taken someone for granted until the thought of that person not always being there hits them. I’ve also realized how strong a cancer patient has to be to go through the treatments and the surgeries they have, just to live one day longer to be with the people they love.

Davey Caring For Carcinoid

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